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End of Memories

End of Memories

Photo from: DEVIANT ART

I didn't expect my heart to find you special

I didn't think you'd make my life so jovial

You were someone who I didn't even notice the first time

I think you stole my heart, just that... one perfect crime.

We had too much fun and we built too many memories

It drowned me with happiness, too much for me to keep.

I can't remember when and where it begun

Though now it ended sadly like the setting sun.

Though it turned out and ended this way

I still keep our mem'ries and look at them in a special way

Sweeter than sugar, deeper than what's deep

Now turned bitter, sometimes I remember and just weep.

I remembered the way we looked in each other's eyes

Like you could see through me with no lies

The way you knew the color of my eyes are

Like no one has gotten to know me that far.

The way you stared at my lips when I speak

Maybe observing if it's dry or glossy, I felt it was sweet.

The way we clasped our hands every time we meet

Then our eyes meet and make that heart-melting greet.

I remember tousling and combing your hair with my fingers

The way you play with my hand, a mem'ry which still lingers.

The way we suddenly stare blankly into space

When the tension and sweetness reaches a pace too fast, leaving us dazed.

You were always beside me anywhere I went

You always took my hand wherever you were sent

You were the sweetest of all friends I ever had

I'm glad, there was that time we have met.

You wrote my name in the sand of the beach where we went

And I wrote yours then we connected it with the word "and".

Those kind of mem'ries almost slipped my mind

Which now I got to remember and got to find.

I even got to see that sunset in that beach with you

I even promised secretly, it would be the last sweet mem'ry I'd keep about us two.

Though every time I was with you, I was always happy

I decided to end it for both me and you.

I can't explain what feelings I have for you

I don't know these emotions I feel for you

Whatever they are turned me into something I didn't want to be

A demanding and jealous girl, I turned to be.

I also grew scared about our happiness being only temporary

That one day soon, you'll change and leave me

So before it happened, I decided to be the first one to leave

Even if I wasn't sure how to decide and what to truly believe.

My Rescue

My Rescue

I was crying under the dark rainy sky

I was cold and alone, I kept asking why

Why did it have to end and be that way?

So many questions; No one knows what to say.

I felt it; All I thought was no one cared

I was stuck and to look forward I didn't dare

It was so dark; I couldn't see or hear anyone but that person

I could only think no one was worth but him for my attention.

I felt stranded and caged that I thought there was no other way

To escape the tears and the pain where I lay

I knew that I was drowning in my own misery

Then something happened; Someone came to rescue me.

I was still faint but I could already feel something different

I tried to open my eyes and heart to see what everything meant

Then I saw that the sky was already clear and warm

I felt safe when I realized someone was supporting my arm.

I lifted my face to look forward and see who was with me

And there you stood with your very warm smile directing at me

Suddenly all the pain was gone and I could breathe again

I couldn't remember anything painful and couldn't decipher where it all went.

I just looked in your eyes and felt the sincerity and innocence

The warmth from you makes me feel like I'm floating in the heavens

Overflowing happiness melts my heart and the whole of me

When you show up, look me in the eyes and smile at me sweetly.

Maybe He sent you to smile at me and let me know that life goes on

You're His way of saving me from being stuck in darkness for too long

That it was time to move on and forget the heartbreak from love and friendship

It was time that I meet new people and make new happy memories to treasure and keep.

Run Away

Run Away

I remember you, sitting by my side

You were never out of my sight

You always followed wherever I went

I won't ever forget the warmth of your hands.

Your smile always melted my heart

Happiness was overflowing when we weren't apart

Your eyes made its mark deep in me

You were the prince who fulfilled my dreams and fantasy.

I couldn't think of anything else with your presence

And sadness drowned me with your absence

You suddenly became the world I revolved around

It became scary, our relationship became deeply bound.

But I know one day, you'll change your mind

One day, you'll just leave me behind

Maybe choose someone better than me to be by your side

So I decided to leave with the true reasons to hide.

I didn't mean to feel this way

Then just back away and not stay

I'll only be a burden to you

A block to hide what you're meant to do.

I didn't want you to focus only on things about me

It was what I saw that frightened me

I want you to go out to somewhere better where you should belong

In a place where I don't exist so goodbye and so long.

.

Takipsilim

Alam kong marami ka pang bagay na hindi naiintindihan

Ako naman, komplikado't maraming dinadahilan

Nakagawian ko nang igawan at bigyan ka ng tula

Tinagalog ko lamang ngayon para maiba naman.

Wala akong ibang hinihingi mula sa iyo

Kung hindi ang basahin mo lamang ito

Marinig mula sa iyo ang totoo

Baka maaari kasing maalis na itong nararamdaman ko.

Alam mo naman ang nararamdaman ko, hindi ba?

O malabo pa rin ba sa'yo o sa iyo'y balewala lang talaga?

Sasabihin ko na lang ulit sa'yo sakaling nakalimutan mo

Ikaw pa lang ang nakapagpasaya sa'kin ng sobra sa buong buhay ko.

Malamang alam mo na rin kung gaano ako kaselosa

Lalo na kapag pinapakita mong wala na lang ako kung hindi itsapwera

'Di ko naman pwedeng pakialamanan kung anong gusto mo

Kaya lagi, umiiwas na lamang ako.

Ayokong makita mong mahina ako

Lalo na kapag nasasaktan mo ako

Kaya ako na lang ang lumalayo't nagtatago

Umiiyak mag-isa sa walang katuturang nararamdaman ko.

Nasasaktan na talaga ako't hindi ko maintindihan

Kung ikaw ba ang may ayaw na sa'kin anumang dahilan

Hindi ko na maalala kung sino ang unang lumayo

Kung sino ang nagsimula ng lahat... ikaw ba o ako?

Pasko na at nalulungkot ako

Dahil hindi ako ang ngayo'y kasama't nasa tabi mo

Pero kung maghanap ng bago ang desisyon mo

Sabihin mo nang deretso sa'kin at tatanggapin ko.

'Di ko na kayang tumingin ng deretso sa mga mata mo

'Di na gaya nang dati, masakit din kasi 'pag ginawa ko.

'Di ko rin alam kung anong nasa isip mo

Kung huling tula na ba itong gagawin ko para sa'yo.

Kung wala na talaga o ayaw mo na

Itapon mo na lamang itong tulang ito sa dagat, sa harap ko.

Kung yun na ang talagang desisyon mo

Siguro mahihirapan ako pero ito'y iintindihin ko.

Kung kaya ko lang burahin lahat ng memoryang ito

Na akala ko ay maitatago ko't mapapanatiling kasiyahan ko

Ngunit sadyang mali nga lamang ba ako

Dahil habang tumatagal, lumalalim lalo ang sugat na naiwan dito sa puso ko.

Habang sinusulat ko ito, naalala kong ikaw ay bata lamang

Marami pang hindi alam at hindi naiintindihan

Pakiramdam ko tuloy walang kabuluhan ito

At hindi mo pa kayang intindihin ito gaya ng gusto ko.

Sana malaman ko kung tapos na nga ba tayo

Kung galit ka o ikaw ay nalilito

Tinapon ko na ang pride ko para isulat at umamin sa'yo

Kaya sana sabihin mo sa'kin kung ano ang nasa isip mo.

Make Believe

hide and pretend

Like a sedative, you put my mind to sleep
Whenever I see you, my heart reaches out and weeps
My sanity leaves like it isn't even there at all
Putting my heart in charge, making me deeply fall.

I've been here before and I planned never to come back
A place where all I can see is darkness, all's black.
It's barren and makes you feel alone... away from others.
With memories haunting once treasured but now makes the pain worse.

Tears roll down my face with no end
Messages from my heart to you are now hard to send
Since now, you don't care about anything from our shared past
Those things we did that I thought wouldn't end but would last.

You deceived me into believing I was special and important to you
That there was an unexplainable connection between us two
But now I know everything was all too good to be true
Everything was a make believe and I didn't even have one clue.